Weigh-In Wednesday!!

Well, at least I can report that I'm moving in the right direction again! I lost the pound I gained two weeks ago, putting me back at 219. Folks, I know this is a slow, slow process. I sort of envisioned that I would get started and weight would just fall off. Here we are 7 weeks in and only 6 pounds down. But it occurred to me this week that there is no END in sight. This is a lifestyle change. This is a process of learning new behaviors and sticking to them. So, I guess I can't rush the process. And let's face it...had I not started this process, I'd most likely be 6 pounds HEAVIER right now!!

I am very pleased to tell you that I was able to buy a size smaller jeans this week. I suppose my 5am workouts are paying off, even if it's not showing so much in the numbers on the scale! I suppose given a choice, I would rather see it in the way my clothes fit than in numbers on a scale!

As always, I thank you for your support, prayers, emails during the week, etc. I couldn't ask for a better group of cheer-leaders!

We are headed to New York City this weekend to attend my sweet friend, Leighanne's, wedding. It should be a great time...lots of walking, but also lots of good food. Hopefully the walking will overpower the food!!

Weigh-In Wednesday

Well, Shamu is in town again. I did, however, go ahead and weigh. I know, I know...I said I wasn't gonna. And I still reserve the right to NOT if I don't wanna. But, I just felt sort of light and airy all the sudden...not too bloated. So, I jumped on a gave it a whirl! I was happy to see that I had stayed the same. Still right at 220. Hopefully, we'll see a good lose next week! Love you all for thinking of me and checking in on me! Thanks!!!

THANKS

Thank you friends for your uplifting encouragement! It's so helpful to me to realize that I'm not in this alone! Your words have been such a helpful motivator to me, and I thank you for "rooting for me"!

Weigh-In Wednesday...ugggg

Well, my pastor used to say something that really stuck with me. "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always gotten." In other words...change begets change. And I guess I just have to face some facts today. If I always eat whatever I want, I'm never going to reach my goal. If I do not learn discipline, I will never change on the inside, much less the outside.

So, you're asking yourself, "Well, how much did the girl gain? 50 pounds?" No, friend, it was just ONE pound. But, I wanna tell you what this one pound represents to me. This pound is a sign to me that I need to GROW THE HECK UP. You know what? I don't want to watch what I eat. I want to eat french fries about 4 times a week and not reap any consequences. Well, I bet you like the sound of that too? Don't we all. The problem is, on some level, I've convinced myself that I can do that...and still get healthy. And it just doesn't work that way does it?

I've wanted to believe that I'd go on this journey...lose the weight...and not really ever have to face the facts about what's going on inside of me. It would be great if ALL I had to tackle here was pounds. But unfortunately, I'm tackling something WAY heavier than that. I'm wrestling with an attitude...a state of mind that has kept me trapped in the fat. And along with finding my way to a healthier weight, I have to find my way to a new way of thinking.

So, is one pound the end of the world? No, it's not. Let's face it, I could smell a cupcake and gain one pound at any given moment. At the same time, I could sneeze and lose one pound. I just figured I'd better be honest with myself and say out loud what we all know to be true...TRUE CHANGE OCCURS FROM THE INSIDE OUT. I will never acheive true, lasting change until I accept the fact that there will be have to be sacrifices on my part.

Help!!!!!!!!!!

 

Calling all cars, calling all cars! There is an assault in progress. It looks like there's a blonde woman about to attack a poor, defenseless chocolate cake. This is the same woman that is trying so hard to lose weight...guess she might need some encouragement. Or, she might need to be put in jail.

Hi Friends,
Well there's not ACTUALLY a chocolate cake about to be assaulted. The above scenario is just a little description of my current state of mind. I'm not focused. If a chocolate cake were to present itself to me right now...I'm not gonna lie, I'd partake...ALOT! Just wanted to ask you all to please say a prayer for me or send an encouraging word to boost my attitude. Somehow, I seem to think that 6 pounds down is the same as 60, and that suddenly I'm done! This is NOT the case...sadly. I've got a long way to go and there's alot of work to do! I need a continuation of the determination that has been so strong up to now. I'd appreciate your help! :) Thanks!

Weigh-In Wednesday

No better...but no worse! I stayed exactly the same (219), which I will count a success given my not so excellent food choices this week (see Tattle-tale Tuesday below). Let's see if by NOT eating pizza, movie candy AND ice cream, I can take more off this next week! :) Stay tuned...

PS: There's a size 16 black dress in my closet that I would love to be able to get into for a wedding at the end of this month. Not sure if it can happen, but I'm certainly going to give it a good try!

Tattle-Tale Tuesday

That's right...time to tattle on myself. As we all know, the road to any goal is full of ups and downs, highs and lows. Well, tonight might have been a bit of a low. There I was, cooking what was going to be a healthy chicken taco recipe. Chicken prepared...check. And that's as far as I got. All of the sudden, I decided that I was just incredibly too tired to complete the cooking of this meal. So what did I do? Called Doug to help finish it? Well no. Took a rest and came back to it? No again. Told Doug that we were going to Cici's for pizza? You got it. The only redeeming moment of this story is that we walked to Cici's from our house. Yeah, I know, not so redeeming.

Besides this momentary breakdown (as well as one with an ice cream cone and some movie candy), I've done pretty well this week. Now, the scales may not be kind to me tomorrow due to a few of my choices this week. But, we'll see. I have continued my workouts and with added intensity! I am so thankful to actually feel like I'm working out hard again! It's taken me awhile to get back to that place due to my sciatic nerve problems. My spirits remain high and I continue to feel very motivated.

Over the weekend, I was looking through my closets (yes, I said CLOSETS) at my Mom's house. There are three to be exact...full of clothes from my smaller days! It was wonderful motivation to see those clothes again. It was like seeing an old friend! I can't wait to hang out with them again, and that gives me the desire I need to keep going.
Thanks for your continued support, prayers and encouragement. I don't know how anyone does this without the help and support of the people around them. Talk to you tomorrow!

Some pictures that we took last week...
 
 
I think I've decided to post new pictures with every 10 pounds lost. So, when I finally get to 10 pounds down, I'll post some more.