Well, my pastor used to say something that really stuck with me. "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always gotten." In other words...change begets change. And I guess I just have to face some facts today. If I always eat whatever I want, I'm never going to reach my goal. If I do not learn discipline, I will never change on the inside, much less the outside.
So, you're asking yourself, "Well, how much did the girl gain? 50 pounds?" No, friend, it was just ONE pound. But, I wanna tell you what this one pound represents to me. This pound is a sign to me that I need to GROW THE HECK UP. You know what? I don't want to watch what I eat. I want to eat french fries about 4 times a week and not reap any consequences. Well, I bet you like the sound of that too? Don't we all. The problem is, on some level, I've convinced myself that I can do that...and still get healthy. And it just doesn't work that way does it?
I've wanted to believe that I'd go on this journey...lose the weight...and not really ever have to face the facts about what's going on inside of me. It would be great if ALL I had to tackle here was pounds. But unfortunately, I'm tackling something WAY heavier than that. I'm wrestling with an attitude...a state of mind that has kept me trapped in the fat. And along with finding my way to a healthier weight, I have to find my way to a new way of thinking.
So, is one pound the end of the world? No, it's not. Let's face it, I could smell a cupcake and gain one pound at any given moment. At the same time, I could sneeze and lose one pound. I just figured I'd better be honest with myself and say out loud what we all know to be true...TRUE CHANGE OCCURS FROM THE INSIDE OUT. I will never acheive true, lasting change until I accept the fact that there will be have to be sacrifices on my part.
9/10/2008
Weigh-In Wednesday...ugggg
Posted by Holly at 9/10/2008
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You can do it, Bon! I believe in you.
On an unrelated note - nice use of the word beget. :)
I need your attitude. It would probably help me lose the weight faster! Thanks for the motivation!
So true... from the inside out. I find that I am constantly fighting lies that have been fed to me by society and unhealthy people in my life. The lies are so engrained that I don't even realize that I'm acting out of that messed up belief system. I sometimes have to stop and ask myself, what is it that I'm feeling when I'm making this choice to eat a burger and fries instead of the meal I know I should eat? If I can identify the feeling, sometimes I can identify the lie that I'm still believing. It doesn't mean that the lie goes away immeidiately, but it's a step in the right direction and I may be able to catch myself earlier the next time, prior to ingesting hundreds of extra calories! :) It is a constant battle and a long journey. I think you're on the right track, though, because you realize that it's not all about the physical battle with calories and exercise. Love you girl! I'm so proud of you!
Love your post Holly. Way to be real and get to the root of the issue. I am so proud of you and this journey. No use treating a huge open wound with a bandaid. Keep on keeping on! Our Father is blessing this journey my friend!!!
I love you Holly! You are such an inspiration to me. Your honesty is amazing and I just loved talking with you yesterday. Keep your chin up and your eye on the prize! You are doing great and I am proud of you! Caroline wanted me to tell you "eeee oooh mmme shsss beee hoooo" which translates to I miss and love you Aunt Hots. Love, Kim and Caroline
Hey Holly,
Hang in there girl. In many ways I can totally relate. After two babies I have just found myself resting in the excuse that, "well- I'm not done having kids yet, so why would I work so hard when it will just come back." And here I am, pregnant with our last baby and already dreading having to face the truth about eating healthily once the baby comes out. Hang in there Holly! Your words, your heart, your life on this blog is an inspiration to so many! We're all rooting for you!
Hey Hots---You know I'm in there with you!! Your words are so true! I'm so glad I get to be on this journey "up close and personal" since I'm on the treadmill with you most mornings. It's time to get out the "big guns" and let you get the same inspiration from yourself that you are so able to give out to others---including me!! We can do this, Sister!----Maybe getting over your "poison ivy" will help too!!!
Love, Mom
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