Uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh!

Still here. Didn't quit...exactly. However, I have not worked out in days, and I'm pretty sure that I'm working on an extra layer of "warmth" this holiday season. Ugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!
I wish I could explain how terribly terrible this is! I totally agree with my Mom when she tells me how much worse it could be. I could have problems so much worse than being overweight. So, please know that I have not lost sight of that truth. However, uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!
In the very paraphrased words of the apostle Paul, "What I do, I don't want to do, and what I want to do, I don't do." I wonder if Paul had a weight problem. You know, they never really do tell us what that "thorn in his flesh" was. I think he might have been fat. Just a guess. I so relate with that guy. What I do (eat too much), I really don't ultimately want to do. And what I want to do (get with the program and get the weight off), I don't do. Again I say,
Ugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!! I just can't seem to get ahold of myself. And it's terrible. And you want to know what the worst part of it is? NOBODY besides ME can do this for me!!! Why is that such a hard concept for me to accept? I just don't know. So, I don't know what to say. I'm not gonna weigh in because I just can't face it right now. I can't. I'm sorry. And I know it would make sense to weigh and see the damage, and get back on the wagon, or whatever. But I just can't do it today. Maybe tomorrow. Just wanted you to know that I'm still here...and even though more energy is going into worrying about the problem than facing and dealing with the problem...I'm still willing to put myself out there. So hopefully that means I'm still not a quitter?

Starting Over Folks...

Yes, I know it's Thursday. Just couldn't face it yesterday. So today I faced the music. Sad to report that I'm back where I started. Gained 2 this week, putting me back at 225. Feeling like a failure? Yes. Ready to quit? Yes. Gonna quit? HECK NO! I'm starting over. Have made it back to the gym this week which is good. Just gotta get back on the horse...
I have a friend online who is a wonderful inspiration to me! She has lost 47 lbs. Hope that's right Melisa...got that number off your blog. Anyway, she's done AMAZINGLY well and I'm so impressed and proud of her. On her blog, she wrote about a new motivator...having her husband be able to pick her up again! I LOVE THIS! I want Doug to be able to pick me up without hurting himself. And I want to feel good about sitting down on his lap/knee. Right now, I'm afraid it might result in a need for surgery!
Anyway, thank you dear friends for your constant support and encouragement. I will say that this is absolutely the worst time of the year to try to lose weight. But if I'm honest...there's NEVER a good time of year for it! Because no matter what, it involves sacrifice...whether it's the sacrifice of Thanksgiving stuffing, Christmas candy, July 4th hotdogs, etc...There's never an easy time. But, as my Mom says, it could be so much worse! I could have a health condition that I had no control over and no ability to change. So, I guess I need to be thankful that at this point, I do have the ability to change this. And I WILL!!!