Hanging on...

I'm still here and still working!  I have to admit I've been a bit lax during Christmas, but I'm reeling it back it.  I haven't gained any, but I haven't lost any either.  So, I've gotta go back to the basics!!!  Thanks for your continued prayers and well wishes.

TWENTY POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right...I'm twenty pounds down! How wonderful and excellent to see 210 pounds rather than 230!!!!
I'm amazed and astonished and so incredibly relieved that I'm on the right track...and during the holidays no less!
Happy...

Survival and enjoyment!

So happy to be able to report to you that while I did very much enjoy all Thanksgiving foods, I DID NOT lose total control! Well, there for a couple of days I put the control on the back burner, but only to move it right back up to the front burner when all the festivities were over.

This is a major blessing and also has to be a miracle of God! My typical MO is to EAT my way through Thanksgiving, right into Christmas and hey...why not just top off the New Year with a few hundred calories extra as well?! NOT THIS YEAR!!!

I will definitely enjoy my favorite foods and will not deny myself of that pleasure. But, I will not treat every day of this month as a holiday! A friend and I attended a Weight Watchers meeting a few years back around the holidays. The leader said something along the lines of, "How about celebrating the holidays WITHOUT food?!" I'm pretty sure people laughed out loud at her. What a ridiculous idea that is! That is definitely NOT my plan!!

Food is a wonderful thing...a blessing...a source of energy...and something most people really enjoy! My problem is not FOOD. My problem is using food to numb feelings that I don't want to feel...anger, sadness, boredom, you name it! So, it will never be my goal to learn how to manage food. It will be my goal to manage feelings and to learn better ways of coping so that I don't EVER AGAIN revisit the "fat rack" in my closet once I finally get away from it this time.

I'm not planning to weigh until Monday, so I will let you know how I've done since my last weigh in...

Until then, here's to good food!! After all...it's not the enemy.

Thanks for your continued encouragement and prayers!