Still here. Didn't quit...exactly. However, I have not worked out in days, and I'm pretty sure that I'm working on an extra layer of "warmth" this holiday season. Ugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!
I wish I could explain how terribly terrible this is! I totally agree with my Mom when she tells me how much worse it could be. I could have problems so much worse than being overweight. So, please know that I have not lost sight of that truth. However, uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!
In the very paraphrased words of the apostle Paul, "What I do, I don't want to do, and what I want to do, I don't do." I wonder if Paul had a weight problem. You know, they never really do tell us what that "thorn in his flesh" was. I think he might have been fat. Just a guess. I so relate with that guy. What I do (eat too much), I really don't ultimately want to do. And what I want to do (get with the program and get the weight off), I don't do. Again I say,
Ugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!! I just can't seem to get ahold of myself. And it's terrible. And you want to know what the worst part of it is? NOBODY besides ME can do this for me!!! Why is that such a hard concept for me to accept? I just don't know. So, I don't know what to say. I'm not gonna weigh in because I just can't face it right now. I can't. I'm sorry. And I know it would make sense to weigh and see the damage, and get back on the wagon, or whatever. But I just can't do it today. Maybe tomorrow. Just wanted you to know that I'm still here...and even though more energy is going into worrying about the problem than facing and dealing with the problem...I'm still willing to put myself out there. So hopefully that means I'm still not a quitter?
12/17/2008
Uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh!
Posted by Holly at 12/17/2008
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I know you got on my blog late, but did you happen to look at the beginning? See how many times I started and stopped? How many times I said, I don't have it in me to see my weight today? Those days and these things happen. Don't beat yourself up, sweetie! It's the holidays!
God's mercies are new EVERY morning. As Flylady says, you are not behind! Just start where you are!
Today is a NEW day. Yesterday no longer matters. Moment by moment you can decide to do this! If you can't go day by day then go hour by hour. If you can't go hour by hour, go minute by minute! Every minute is a victory.
I was thinking of you on Wednesday and prayed for you!
No, my friend you are not a quitter. It is a life-long journey, not a quick fix and you will prevail!
Love the thought of if Paul was fat or not, you are a mess!
Love you!
Holly,
I hear your frustration with yourself! But this is a very difficult time of year to start on a new eating program. It seems like during the holidays, food is everywhere!!!! Why don't you just give yourself a break for the next few days and enjoy the holidays with your family. And I hope you know we all love you, not matter how much you weigh. I know in my heart that you will conquer this when you are mentally and emotionally ready. I know that when I put extra pressure on myself to accomplish something, it almost makes it worse. I agree with the above comments - sometimes we just have to do things one minute at a time - and we can start over at any time during the day!
I love you and hope you and your family have a very Merry Christmas! Please say "Hi" to your Mom for me.
Love you,
Judy
Holly,
I know how hard it is. Call me any time Meg has my number. Some how this time i have been successful but I did not do it by my self.
Wendy
You can do it. But these things take time .....a long time and you must accept your successes no matter how small. Recognize them and be happy with yourself for what ever little acomplishment(s) you have each day.
Wendy
Hots, you can do it! I'm rooting you on each day! Miss you and praying for you.
My dear, sweet friend! I am late in reading this blog, but I know the frustration may still exist. You have not failed as long as you're willing to get back up and try again. Maybe not immediately, especially since it was the holidays, but you can do it! My dad used to always say, "We go from where we are." So, no looking back and regretting things, just look forward and figure out how to put one foot in front of the other to move forward. We don't forget the past and our blunders, but we certainly don't let them weigh us down either! You can do it! Happy New Year! Love you!
-The Carolina Cutie Pie
I read this today: "Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time." - Thomas Edison
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